I Didn't Love Him Enough

Dear Jane,As I write about in Enough Is Enough!, underneath
My ex-husband and I divorced after sixteen yearsevery resentment we hold is an underlying
of marriage. It wasn't an awful marriage but Ipersonal regret. Deep down, doesn't your ex
never really loved him. He knew this although weprobably really regret not loving himself enough to
never really talked about it. When he started tohave created a loving relationship with a partner
drink a few years after our daughter was born, Ior even with himself?
really felt even more distant from him. WeSo what can you do? Tell him that you hope that
divorced six years ago without much discussion,he heals the thought that he's unworthy so that
like distant strangers.he can have the love he deserves. Tell him that
Now I've met a wonderful man whom I loveyou hope he gets underneath his resentment to
deeply. It seems that my ex suddenly can't standhis real regret: that he let himself waste time
that I'm happy. (He heard about it from ourfeeling unloved and drowning his feelings in alcohol.
daughter; I wouldn't have rubbed his nose in it.) HeTell him that you are willing to forgive yourself for
started calling me telling me every few days,wasting time similarly.
haranguing me that it's my fault that he drank,What you can apologize for is participating in
that I ruined his self-esteem, and that he wastedreinforcing his limiting beliefs in any way that you
the best years of his life on me. I want to knowdid while you were married. If you were unloving
what I should feel guilty about. What should Iin word or deed, if you ignored him, if you were
apologize for?less than compassionate, apologize for all of that
While we bring all our hopes and dreams intonow. Forgive yourself for what your part was
marriage, we also bring all our limiting beliefs,given whatever baggage you brought to the
self-judgments, and fears, most of which surfacerelationship. Then encourage him to forgive
only after the routine of daily life sets in. Whenhimself. After that, see him as a whole, deserving,
your ex-husband agreed to marry you knowingempowered, and healed being. This is the most
you didn't really love him, he unconsciously usedloving and compassionate thing you can do for
you to reinforce a prior belief that he wasn'tboth of you.
lovable. (Perhaps you had the same unconsciousAnnouncements
limiting belief or why would you have chosenRecovery from the Inside Out
him?) This baggage of feeling unworthy of love isJane has been invited to New Orleans to give a
what drove him to drink, not you. All youworkshop on November 18, 2007 for folks whose
provided was a mirror of a belief he already held.lives have been forever changed by Katrina.
That's what people do: they mirror back what weDuring my stay, I will keep a video diary, which I
already believe about ourselves.will upload to my Web site, If you live in New
Now, once again, he's using your currentOrleans, you are invited to attend this free
happiness to mirror his belief that he's unworthy.workshop. My gratitude to my dear friend, Patte
It's not your intention to hurt him. He's hurtingMcDowell, for donating her air miles.
himself and he's the only one who can stopAlso, I will be donating 120 copies of my book,
hurting himself by healing his thoughts about hisThe Blue Book of Grammar and Punctuation,
worthiness instead of wasting any more timeEighth Edition, to New Orleans schools. If you
resenting you. The most harmful thing you couldknow of a school needing these invaluable books,
do is to reinforce his unworthiness belief by takingcontact me at
on inappropriate guilt. If you say, "You're right toJane on TV January 10, 2008
resent me. It's all my fault that you're miserableJane will be interviewed on NBC 11's The Bay
and alcoholic," you are encouraging him to stayArea Today on January 10. She will be talking
blind to what your relationship mirrored within him.about New Year's resolutions. Expect a fresh take
If you don't want to reinforce the belief that he ison the subject. More details to follow.
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